How it began…
I woke up weary after an intense session with my business coach.
It was one of those life-altering, can-I-really-have-what-I-want meetings that left me feeling inspired by what I created for the next year, and exhausted by the enormity of it.
Reality check: While I know it may not be enormous in actuality, at that moment, it felt huge, like a Grand Canyon sized gap between where I am today and where I see myself a year from now.
This is what I witness almost daily with my clients. This is what I’m experiencing again today, because believe me, I’ve been here before.
It’s unsettling to lay out the future so clearly.
It’s easier to settle for the familiar, even if it’s not satisfying, because the familiar is safe, and comfortable.
I don’t believe that safe is what we’re here for.
I cancelled my morning plans, and gave myself permission to walk along the river near my home, breathe in the fresh air, and watch my dog explore the world in front of her nose. She does this so very well.
When I got home I pulled cards and did a reading for myself. I’m fairly new to tarot, so these thoughts are right out of the guidebook, but still, I was amazed at how they related to my life.
What the cards said…
I pulled (from left to right) the tarot cards for past, present, and future, and then below, a Truthbomb for the question, “What do I need right now?”
And then magic.
Past: Seven of Pentacles
Seven relates to knowledge, and the need to make a decision; a choice between two paths of action. One path is familiar, tried, tested, and profitable; the other is new and unknown.
The past few months have been about shifting from the familiar to the unknown, and I made a decision a while back that felt totally aligned when I read this card. I trusted myself, perhaps more than I’ve ever done in the past, and let something go. Done. No regrets. Over with a clean, clear energy.
There is freedom in that.
I am reminded that I will do anything to feel free in my life.
- What’s your core desired and non-negotiable feeling?
Present: Ten of Swords
The end of a situation or phase. Change occurs because whatever has been is no longer valid. It’s sometimes painful when our limiting beliefs are stripped away, but it’s also an opportunity for something new and real and truthful to grow in its place.
I felt this in my body, a visceral reaction. Like the first card, it felt like an acknowledgement, and even celebration of the completion. Am I sad at the ending? Yes, but I’m ready for what’s next.
I am reminded that change is a natural, inevitable aspect of life, and I can resist or flow with it.
- How do you respond to change?
Future: Three of Pentacles
A level of achievement is reached, but the building and growing is not done, and there’s a way to go before completion. There’s satisfaction in the achievement and possible frustration of the road ahead.
Given that I just had a strategizing day with my coach, this made perfect sense.
I am reminded to slow down, savour all parts of the journey, and notice all the good. There is no rush.
- How might you slow down to feel more present throughout the day?
Truthbomb: Angels, angels everywhere
I pulled this card right at the end out of habit. I’ve used the Truthbomb decks since they first came out, and they almost always strike a chord.
I asked the question, “What do I need right now?” and pulled this “angel” card. It made me laugh because I guess I needed yet another reminder to ask for support, as well as a nudge to notice the angels that are already around me and part of my life.
Why I Believe Them
What I love about this practice is that it gives me a way to make sense of my days or my energy, often transforming something negative into a tool for understanding.
There’s a ritual and mystery in the cards, and I’ve come to trust their magic. The thing I’m most aware of is that what we believe is always a choice, and I choose to believe what feels good, and aligns with my soul.
It’s a choice that enlivens my experience of life, and wouldn’t we all like more of that?
“Alchemy is taking something ordinary and turning it into something extraordinary, sometimes in a way that cannot be explained.” – Kenneth Coombs, Tarot Alchemy